URSELAPATCH

its nice to come back here after a few days and see the comments you left. sometimes i wish i still had time to update every day but i dont and i wont unless something changes, because school cuts straight to basketball cuts straight to homework cuts straight to bed. its strange how timing works because there was such a long time when i just wanted to graduate already and leave every single fucking person from rchs behind. i dont want to do that anymore. i dont want to leave you all behind. but i am no good at long distance communication and we are all going to spread out and away, and i am not so naive as to think that we will all get together over christmas break for a happy little holiday party. lets do that, okay? lets all come back and get together over a break and have a party. it could happen, right? whatever. i wish i had figured out who my real friends were a little earlier than i did, but hell, thats life, and better late than never, right? there is still time to have our conversations, to lie on the couch eating fruit snacks and pulling truth or dare questions off an internet site, to make fun of chris and slattery, to just sit around and do nothing. i watched that stupid show laguna beach while i was doing some homework earlier and it just about killed the sentimentality that had been creeping up on me, and thats good because i dont want to get sentimental about anything. i want to keep going and just deal with it, because thats all that can be done anyway. ah, well. shit happens. laguna beach is a piece of shit. laguna beach happens. anyway, my dad and i went to the unc vs kentucky game today and watched unc kick ass and that was pretty fun despite the idiots sitting around us. isnt it funny how so many people in the world are idiots? isnt it funny to think about how many people in the world must think you and i are idiots? i think about that a lot. i think that most of the school thinks im an idiot and a lot of the time i consider myself an idiot but damn, those people sitting near us at the game were idiots. maybe its all just one big joke anyway. life, that is. and we die and this voice comes out of nowhere and says, "GOTCHA!" oh yeah, i got that AP Scholars award (with distinction). i finally have something decent to put on my college applications under that heading, "Honors and Awards." the heading that always scared me the most thinking, "oh shit, i cant just leave that blank!" so now it wont be blank. and now this blog isnt quite as blank and i think ive fulfilled my duty as a blogger so now im leaving again. peace out, kids.