URSELAPATCH

as promised, this blog is going. fortunately for you, i started up a new one.

(oh my god im so laaaaaaame!)

its all for you now. go read, dammit.

http://www.bestofyourbadmoods.blogspot.com

half the time i want to just delete this thing. the other half i dont care either way. so ive made a bet with myself...

if i get to go out tonight (aka it doesnt snow), then i will continue with the blog for the moment.

if i have to stay at home doing mostly nothing, then this thing is going straight down the drain.

now i just have to sit back and see how it all goes...

ps check out jakes new blog wow its awesome yayayayayay

by far one of the best things ive ever done has been keeping up with some old friends.

i woke up and saw the snow forming dusty little white lines in all of the cracks of the world, sticking to rooftops and pine straw like velcro, melting into porous lawns. the chimney of the house across the street is spitting wet streams of white smoke into the air and the porch light is blinking on and off, winking at me as i sit here in the upstairs window and watch.

i wish i could fastforward time. i wish it with all of the impatience of modern technology; all of the impatience of youth. if everything could be done with the click of a button...

Humanity i love you because when you're hard up you pawn your intelligence to buy a drink
~e e cummings

my report card came back today with six "a"s on it and my first thought was of the six free krispy kreme doughnuts that will be heading my way. rachel i love you because you have bought yourself a half dozen rings of sugary joy with your semi-intelligence.

my room is so clean its unbelievable. the floor, bed, closet, desk... everything spotless. i might even sleep in there tonight for the first time in months.

it seems upon reflection that ive been in a pretty good mood lately. i know that this is a lie; the pain that has returned to my back and shoulders is plenty of evidence for that. despite that, i dont know why things look so positive from this vantage point.

maybe im just overtired.

ive decided to buy myself a playstation2 and gta san andreas. ever since daniel took his ps2 back to greenville ive been seriously lacking an outlet for my aggression. blasting video game animations with a variety of weapons ought to do the trick. im only a pacifist when it comes to reality.

having finished jon stewarts "america, the book," (absolutely wonderful) im lacking reading material. suggestions, anyone?

and the heat in that stifling rubber floored gym was incredible.

but really, i dont know what else to say to you. thats why i so frequently consider deleting this blog.

exhaustion reigns.


ps: since you seem to be so curious, nate, i have read the satanic verses.